Even Heroes Die

Dear Mr. Obama

2008-09-10T20:10:00.002-05:00

Compounding

2008-08-13T23:36:00.004-05:00

This is my favorite part of my job. Compounding!
Crush Tablets
into powder
add contents of capsules

mix together
add liquid
thoroughly mix
pour in bottle
add other liquid contents to proper amount

and shake well!

This particular compound is for thrush and other oral problems.

Adele 19

2008-08-06T18:09:00.002-05:00

Who wants to be right as rain
It's better when something is wrong
You get excitement in your bones
And everything you do's a game
When night comes and your all on your own
You can say I chose to be alone
Who want to be right as rain
It's harder when your on top

Cause when hard work don't pay off
And I'm tired there ain't no room in my bed
As far as I'm concerned
So wipe that dirty smile off
We won't be making up
I've cried my heart out
And now I've had enough of love

Who wants to be riding high
When you'll just crumble back on down
You give up everything you are
And even then you don't get far
They make believe that everything
Is exactly what it seems
But at least when your at your worst
You know how to feel things

See when hard work don't pay off
And I'm tired there ain't no room in my bed
As far as I'm concerned
So wipe that dirty smile off
We won't be making up
I've cried my heart out
And now I've had enough of love

Go ahead and still my heart
To make me cry again
Cause it will never hurt
As much as it did then
When we were both right
And no one had blame
But now I give up
On this endless game

Cause who wants to be right as rain
It's better when something is wrong
I get excitement in your bones
Even thought everything's a strain
When night comes and I'm all on my own
You should know I chose to be alone
So who want to be right as rain
It's harder when your on top

Cause when hard work don't pay off
And I'm tired there ain't no room in my bed
As far as I'm concerned
So wipe that dirty smile off
We won't be making up
I've cried my heart out
And now I've had enough of love

Should I?

2008-08-05T23:01:00.003-05:00

Should I give up? Or just keep chasing pavement? Even if it leads nowhere? Would it be a waste? Even if I knew my place? Should I leave it there?

Song in my head

2008-08-03T19:39:00.003-05:00

I am free, I am free, I am free in your love. I'm sustained, I'm sustained, I'm sustained by your love.

This part of a song has been stuck in my head all day. I love this part :) Aaron you write great songs man.

Undefinable

2008-07-30T19:38:00.005-05:00

I do not have to worry about letting anyone down or fitting into anyone's mold-for there
is no mold that can contain me. You cannot put me in a box yet neither can I be framed.
I am a work of art...but one never meant to be left hanging on a wall. I am a living piece
of art. Many words are used to describe me, but beauty and majesty cannot be uttered
through mere words. The only way to see me or comprehend the concept of me is to
encounter me. Even then, I am more than a concept. I am a way of life, and a style is me.
Undefinable by this world and even the world unseen; for I am more than these things.

I am waiting. I am moving. I am dancing. I am patiently and inpatiently sitting. I am alive.
I am more than life, but I am not alive by myself.

When I feel dead to myself i live in my dreams. I make my dreams realities, and I make
reality seem like a dream.

I perplex the most knowledgeable of scholars, and I astound the most skilled of artists.

A dictionary cannot define me. Nor can a painting or a photograph.

Words have tried for years to limit me to what others said I was, but I have broken past
that jail cell. I have set myself free.

Free does not even define me. Nor does idealistic.

I am not to be categorized.

I am not classifiable.

Unique does not even cut it.

Real is a good word for me. But even that does not compare to the reality of me.

I am invincible. My heart is made of steel and yet as delicate as a wet painting. I am as
easily stained aw wet porcelain, but I am rugged as a rock.

I tried to tell you, I perplex the best puzzle workers.

I am a problem that cannot be solved. There is no formula to solve my equation. Yet I
am not even a mere problem.

I am the solution for many problems...yet I am not a solution to be used.

I am a song to be sung, but one that can never be written.

I am the epitome of faith, yet I am the root of reason.

I am wisdom that is bestowed upon me...but I am as foolish as a child.

I am unbreakable...yet so easily broken.

I tried to tell you. I cannot be defined, but you did not believe me.

I am doing my best to put me on paper, but even paper and pen are not the correct
medium to capture my meaning or message.

My life is a life of life (as much sense as that makes).

I am the best of jokes and the most impactful quote.

I am as stretchable as a rubber band, but as stubborn as a stain on white canvas.

You cannot eraese (scratch that) erase me but my impact keeps coming back like
weeds in your front lawn for all to see.

I am as silly as dyslexia. I am as hair-brained as a scarecrow.

I cannot spell words sometimes (as proven previously and left for example) but I am
as eloquent as Frost.

I am as white as snow but as free flowing as the ocean.

I am as seasonal as the weather.

I am as harsh as frostbite but as gentle as a butterfly.

I can fly away, yet I can walk one step at a time.

I spread my wings slowly but rashly with wisdom in proper time.

I cannot be summed up.

I am unforgettable.

I am undefinable.

I am a paradox.

Forever a Victim? I don't think so....

2008-07-28T23:07:00.002-05:00

I woke up yesterday with the most dumbfounding thoughts in my head. I have been depressed and upset for a long, long time. And this morning I woke up and realized that I am still breathing. That just because I exist doesn't mean I am living. I have been a victim of my circumstances for far too long. It's called the past for a reason. It's behind me. I feel so good right now. I am so happy. It's time to stop complaining and use my energy to GET UP and not to recycle my pain. I WILL NOT STAY IN A STATE OF DEFEAT!!! I will not be a victim. It's time to be the somebody's answer and not somebody's problem. Even if you don't help me, even if you don't support me, even if you don't encourage me, even if you're not there for me, even if you don't believe in me; i believe in myself and I WILL GET UP! I can now stand on what I've been through and move on. Everyone out of my way :)

BEATLES TRIBUTE CONCERT

2008-07-26T00:09:00.012-05:00

Do we really need the FDA?

2008-07-22T19:34:00.008-05:00

This is an article I read recently concerning the FDA. I find it quite interesting and will explain after you read.

For all the hoopla and noise being made by the two presidential hopefuls over the state of our health care, there is not much talk about liife expectancy in the United States compared to that in other countries. Despite all the rhetoric about how great our health care system, the CIA's World Factbook states that the U.S, ranks 47th in the life expectancy behind Japan, Canada, France, Sweden, Switzerland, Australia, Israel, and the UK (to name a few). Although the rankings make for an interesting news item, they don't explain the factors that contribute to our relatively poor standing. While some critics will point to environmental hazards, substandard living conditions, lack of health insurance, or a host of other possible culprits we deal with on a daily basis in the U.S., the bottom line is that the low ranking is really about the quality of health care. Many will argue that even if we did have the best health care system in the world, there are millions of Americans who are not benefiting from it because they cannot afford it. Even more disturbing is that, among Americans who pay dearly for health care provided by insurance companies, many are not getting the tests, treatments, or drugs they need because of the restrictiveness of their health plans. And while we may have the best diagnosticians in the world, it all comes down to the availability of life-saving drugs. Other critics are quick to blame our poor showing on world life-expectancy charts on the FDA and its backlog of new drug approvals. Some pharmacists are even suggesting that we don't need the FDA at all. My immediate response is: Of course we do. While the FDA has come under attack lately for some questionable drug approvals, overall I believe that the FDA does a creditable job of keeping this country's drug supply safe and effective. And when you think of the thousands of drugs it has approved over the years and the lives that have been saved, this is no small achievement. While most health care professionals are familiar with the FDA's watchdog function over the U.S. health supply, don't forget that the agency also monitors medical devices, biologics, blood, vaccines, veterinary medicine, cosmetics, products that emit radiation, and this nation's food supply, all of which factor into our life expectancy. Despite this seemingly impossible task, the FDA is woefully underfunded and understaffed; in fact, it recently announced that it has more than 1,300 positions to fill. While the FDA may be a thorn in the side of many companies here and abroad, its mission of protecting the U.S. population from bad drugs, tainted food, and a number of other serious health matters is daunting. And despite all of its shortcomings, I am one American who is proud to say that I feel safer having the FDA on my side. The FDA has never wavered from its mission of protecting U.S. citizens since its humble beginnings in 1862 with one chemist in the Division of Agriculture. Since then it has grown to an organization of more than 9,000 employees and oversees items accounting for 25 cents of every dollar spent by consumers. Under its current commissioner, Andrew C. von Eschenbach, MD, the FDA has recognized its shortcomings, and instead of burying its head in the sand like some other government agencies it has strengthened its focus on drug safety. Pharmacists who dispense the medications that the FDA approves should not be asking whether we need the FDA. Instead, they should be supporting the FDA with respect for the magnitude of its accomplishments over the years. They should embrace the agency's activities because, after all, pharmacists are a key component of the drug delivery system in this country and an extension of the FDA's drug safety program. I can only hope that the next president shares that same respect for the FDA and pharmacists by rewarding both of them monetarily for the important role they play in prolonging patients' lives.

Harold E. Cohen, Rph.

I find this article rather interesting because it omits one very important point. It complains that Americans are ranked 47th in the world for life expectancy. It then goes on to blame the environment, lack of insurance, lack of health care, and substandard living as causes of this. But, it fails to blame one thing...us!!! We are responsible for ourselves. We as Americans have shortened our own lives. By choosing not to excersize, by choosing to eat bad food, by choosing to smoke and drink. We are so quick to blame other factors in our life for our lack of disipline. Lack of discipline results in the quality of life we have today. I have been around the world, trust me when I say we are known as a country of obese, unintelligent, lazy people sitting on our high horse; comfortable as a world super power. Unfortunetly, it's true. We are killing ourselves, but asking someone else to hold the gun and take the blame. It's sad that an organization such as the FDA is considered a hinderance to our life expectancy and the quality of that life. An organization that, as explained above, protects us from bad drugs, tainted food, and other serious health matters. So before pointing fingers at others, take a good look in the mirror, the cupboard, or the medicine cabinet. After that, you can start prolonging your own life instead of waiting for someone to do it for you.

Nicole Satterlee C.Ph.T

I've Loved This Song Recently

2008-07-18T22:30:00.002-05:00

Whatever It Takes

A strangled smile fell from your face

What kills me that I hurt you this way

The worst part is that I didn't even know

Now there's a million reasons for you to go

But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes

To turn this around

I know that what's at stake

I know that I've let you down

And if you give me a chance

Believe that I can change

I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work

You gotta let me inside even though it hurts

Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"

She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be

You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes

To turn this around

I know what's at stake

I know that I've let you down

And if you give me a chance

And give me a break

I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt

That I'd be lost without you and never find myself

Let's hold onto each other above everything else

Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes

To turn this around

I know what's at stake

I know I've let you down

And if you give me a chance

and believe that I can change

I'll keep us together whatever it takes

Lifehouse

To My Enemy

2008-07-10T22:36:00.003-05:00

I now sleep with
my sword across my breast.
My dreams are filled
with scenes of our battle.
I have fought you
day and night, dawn to dusk.
My hate for you
pounds loudly in my chest.
It drives my mind,
my hands, my feet, my sword.
You're relentless;
your full weight against mine.
Blow after blow,
I withstand your attack.
Your mind is set
to kill at any cost.
But...

Were you aiming to kill my body?

No...

You aimed to kill my spirit.

You missed...

Good-night my enemy.
By morning one of us will die.

Good-night

2008-07-10T13:20:00.005-05:00

"Good-night my enemy.

By morning one of us will die."

Yesterday Life Was Such An Easy Game To Play

2008-07-09T23:25:00.003-05:00

My friends have been murdered
by porn and video games;
they don't see the sun anymore.
But they can get to level 36
by using that sweet cheat code
they found on the internet!
They are being warped as I speak,
darkening their hair,
darkening their clothes.
A constent quest for that perfect
Facebook shot, pleading me
to rim them with comments.
My friends: They are out smoking
pot, which is fine, but when the
pans start sizzlin', you should turn
down the heat just a notch.
They're frying bigger fish, they say.
While I'm out casting my net,
solo, whisling a tune only
the birds understand.
My friends--the girls and their
pregnancy scares; the guys,
still unaware of the wisdom
of a condom OR abstinence.
My friends--they are drinking
every night just to sleep
and think it's the only true
way to party! 1999 called me
yesterday; I wanted nostalgia
and memories, but my friends,
--my GODDAMN friends--
drive drunk down the lane; now
I only see them in obituaries.

The Road Less Traveled

2008-04-10T17:09:00.000-05:00

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

-Robert Frost

Venting sigh

2008-03-28T21:16:00.002-05:00

"If I wore a dress it would not change who I am!!!!

If I had no piercings or tattoos it does not mean I'm nice!!!!

If my hair wasn't black it would not stop me from kicking your ass!!!!"

Stop telling me who you think I should be. I am me, I have no time to be anyone else or even pretend to be. I was created this way. The only shoes I have to fill are my own.

Even Heroes Die

Dear Mr. Obama

Compounding

Adele 19

Should I?

Song in my head

Undefinable

Forever a Victim? I don't think so....

BEATLES TRIBUTE CONCERT

Do we really need the FDA?

I've Loved This Song Recently

To My Enemy

Good-night

Yesterday Life Was Such An Easy Game To Play

The Road Less Traveled

Venting *sigh*

Venting sigh